Carol Tue May 29, 2012 12:53 am
I graduated to being an elder (age wise) and still often feel I'm just at the beginning of this life experience. But as for being awake (conscious and aware), I noticed injustice even before I could stand up and walk, while sitting in a crib with wet diapers. Meaning I had a fully developed sense of conscious awareness at a very early age. I think most of us who are aware realize that people are born with different levels of past-life experience which tends to lend towards one's conscious awareness as asleep or awake.
Lionhawk - when I wrote about the seven deadly sins and the seven heavenly virtues it reminds me of what I've done and what I have yet to work on. It really doesn't matter how old we get - there is still work to do within. Even when my mother was on her death bed at the end of her long life, she was lamenting at how she wasted her life. It was really sad because I knew where she had blown it. I'm sure even my own children will be letting me know where I blew it with them too. Being an imperfect human being is pretty much the boat that we are all sitting in. Pointing fingers and claiming that someone else is more imperfect then oneself might even be considered the sin of pride. Or perhaps the lack of a heavenly virtue, 'patience' that someone else isn't further along then how one perceives oneself.
Both you and Brook have done a tremendous amount of inner work and those of us who read what you share appreciate your willingness to be so open and making yourselves vulnerable to others perceptions. Still, I personally appreciate kindness when being critiqued and I suspect other members do as well. And I would like to add something else. Brook consistently amazes me with the tenacity that she has shown with her deep inner work and ferreting out the truth as to her past lives and how this all relates to present times. Yes, there are lies that are meant to enslave and keep people stupid. Yet we all know that when the maya is stripped away there is something much more awesome.
Oxy, it really isn't worth dwelling in discouragement too much as your life path is a reflection of the karma you choose to take on this lifetime. You are fulfilling your karmic debt my experiencing your life such as it is. And there are lessons that still come to each of us pretty much on a daily basis until each of us masters what it is that we promised ourselves, at the soul level, we would do.
Sometimes I have this fantasy, that before reincarnating I'm standing there looking in something like a mirror at the new body I will have and laughing my head off. I've lived the life of a monk many times so this is a huge ironic change. In spirit I look at all of the challenges that are set before me and think to myself - 'piece of cake. I can do this." But what happens when I'm down here on the planet, with the veil of forgetfulness drawn across what I know while in spirit, is not often remembered. It's so incredibly different experiencing consciousness in a physical form dealing with a 3D reality as compared to experiencing conscious awareness as a spiritual being. The conscious physical/emotional experience for me at times is similar to attempting to wade through liquid cement - because what I know to be true and as fast as I am in spirit conscious awareness is way ahead of what 3D reality is all about. In fact, my husband told me yesterday that I'm always about 5 steps ahead of everyone else, which puts me out of synch. It's true. It's so frustrating at times I just want to grind my teeth.
Of course yesterday, we were painting the room and I had done the prepping, taping baseboards, filling in nail holes, sanding, cleaning the walls, etc. Being thrilled to have it finished (a project I've been wanting to do for 5 years and was thwarted until now) - as soon as the paint was up it was time for clean-up. Prematurely, I was taking off the masking tape, folding up the tarp and cleaning up only to have to go back and put the tarp back down because some areas needed more touch-up. Frustrating. I wanted to get in there, get it done, clean up and move onto the next project. What I had hope would take one day took 3. I have to say my husband has the patience of Job and needs it being married to me.
And then being able to see the outcome of events yet to happen - and then do happen, but no one, not one single person is interested in paying attention when it would do some good - wants to listen.
I was joking around letting my husband know I would probably make a good point (scout) person on a wagon train heading west because that's what suits my personality. On the go, adventuresome, always looking forward to viewing what's over the next horizon. Yet here I sit with my 5th family. I won't even begin to go into what that entails. However, it was clear to be in that in-between time - that place before we are born, the commitment my spirit made this time around was to be female and experience what it's like to be responsible for children, a home, creating a space, an oasis where we all grow spiritually - internally together. Even in my failures in doing this at times I've discovered via these many lessons that the expansion of ones own conscious awareness tends to unfold like a flower one petal at a time.
Oxy, I still hit myself over the head with a wet noodle thinking I should be doing more. More meditating, more exercise, more creativity involving painting, writing, music, gardening.... just more. Because I also realize that life on this planet is really very, very short compared to the eternal presence of our spirit and I want to cram as much life experience (along with soul growth) into it as possible, while I still have the capacity to do so. So may I suggest you practice being kind to yourself and just take things from there. It's all grist for the mill and the mill is eternal.
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Krishna is that which maintains everything.
, that is insuficient to call for my attention to be honest. I only follow myself and my own personal experiences. I don't need to follow the stories of others and become their devotees 
ETs are not what the New Age movement and Hollywood have portrayed. In other words they could be humans with technology to manipulate the mind
ETs are not what the New Age movement and Hollywood have portrayed. In other words they could be humans with technology to manipulate the mind
Could an advanced civilization use it? .....possibilities......possibilities...... 
