Vidya Moksha wrote:
Early in this thread, post no 41 (is this a link? https://mistsofavalon.forumotion.com/t9878p25-the-bridge-way#141961 I wrote of my experiences with the spirit of my dead friend. Since that time I have no doubt that our souls, atman, whatever you want to name it, persists. So why sadness? My friend has left her body, she is in no pain, she is on the next stage of her journey, it was her time to go. Sadness is for those who feel they have 'lost' someone, it is they who grieve, the spirit doesnt.
I was 'sad' when I had to leave Australia. It hurt a lot. I guess I did my grieving then, feeling sorry for myself. But a useful lesson too. I dont want to feel that way again.
When I met her I was 'flying'. I had just come out of the Peruvian forests, working with ayahausca and san pedro. My heart chakra was fully open for the first time in my life. Since I was a child I have felt the 'energy' of others. I know energy vampires, I can feel them in my 'gut'. my solar plexus chakra.. There was a strong heart connection between us, there was a 'head' connection and a strong sex connection.. but there was a fourth connection that I dont know and I cant describe. I cant say where I felt it.. strange eh? I have no understanding of this energy connection. I did ask myself, and her, if it might be a past life connection? Complete supposition on my part. But if it was and I managed to travel across the globe to meet her in this lifetime then I guess we may well meet in another incarnation? who knows?
I am not callous, but I am pleased she is not suffering, I am pleased I am sleeping again. She will take care of herself as I must look after myself. I dont believe we are meant to be with someone in this life, I believe it is a solo trip, we are here for our spiritual advancement, and this advancement must be done alone, looking for things or people outside of ourselves is a mis-step. Everything we need we already have, within us, we just need to clear the monkey clutter to see it.
I am content alone. I am not seeking a partner, but equally would not run away from a nice connection.
Unless I enter spirit before, I will be back in my forest garden before too long
Wisely spoken Vidhya. My Heart sings
That extra level of connection you are speaking about an answer in resonance with this came to me today prior to reading you imho.
It said something on the order of:
" Soul mates dont fall in love
they recognize one another "
And yes indeed we reached 33 pages today and 34.
This indicates a major change imho.
A turning point maybe.
Love from me
mudra