That's funny Mudra. I've had the thought of wanting to be invisible too. Not in the sense that I didn't want to be present, or wanted to avoid life, but that I wanted all of life to flow through me unhindered, and as you suggest...to simply observe life happening. I used to enjoy walks in the dark (I still would I'm sure - just haven't done so in quite a while). I used to sometimes even turn off the lights in my house and walk around. I enjoyed the sensation of moving as if it's only my awareness that's there.
The tunnel of light is indeed an intriguing subject. When I first heard it suggested that it was a trap of sorts, I was resistant to that suggestion, as we very often are when we're exposed to an unfamiliar or contrary idea. After letting the idea simmer for a bit, I have to say I have no strong feeling either way, because I simply don't know what's true about it. Having said that, applying logic to the situation, there seems to be no great reason to go directly into the tunnel of light.
If it's a '1 time only' type of chance, the beings running it aren't exactly the type I want to be following. Doesn't seem like that would be the case if it's the kind of place I've always expected it to be. Seems like there'd be an open invitation to go there, and you'd be welcomed with open arms any time. If that's actually the case, there's no harm in not going there straight away. Why not check out the alternative?
One thing that's thought provoking to me if it really is a recycling center of sorts, is how we ended up there in the first place. Either we were 'born' into it (which seems very unlikely to me), we were forced into it (which seems equally unlikely), or we volunteered for it (this seems the most likely of the three). If this is the case, there must have been some benefit in it. It's interesting to think about what that benefit may be. I have my own guesses, but they're literally only guesses, and not anything profound. Also, I'd wager that we wouldn't volunteer ourselves into something that there's no way out of. So we'd have known ahead of time that there was a way out. Perhaps realizing the situation and escaping it is part of its purpose in the first place...part of what we may have volunteered for.
If now was my moment of choice and I had just passed over, I believe I would not go to the light straight away. It's honestly impossible for me to say though. It's easy to think you'll know what you'll do in a given situation...and then it happens and you really find out.
The tunnel of light is indeed an intriguing subject. When I first heard it suggested that it was a trap of sorts, I was resistant to that suggestion, as we very often are when we're exposed to an unfamiliar or contrary idea. After letting the idea simmer for a bit, I have to say I have no strong feeling either way, because I simply don't know what's true about it. Having said that, applying logic to the situation, there seems to be no great reason to go directly into the tunnel of light.
If it's a '1 time only' type of chance, the beings running it aren't exactly the type I want to be following. Doesn't seem like that would be the case if it's the kind of place I've always expected it to be. Seems like there'd be an open invitation to go there, and you'd be welcomed with open arms any time. If that's actually the case, there's no harm in not going there straight away. Why not check out the alternative?
One thing that's thought provoking to me if it really is a recycling center of sorts, is how we ended up there in the first place. Either we were 'born' into it (which seems very unlikely to me), we were forced into it (which seems equally unlikely), or we volunteered for it (this seems the most likely of the three). If this is the case, there must have been some benefit in it. It's interesting to think about what that benefit may be. I have my own guesses, but they're literally only guesses, and not anything profound. Also, I'd wager that we wouldn't volunteer ourselves into something that there's no way out of. So we'd have known ahead of time that there was a way out. Perhaps realizing the situation and escaping it is part of its purpose in the first place...part of what we may have volunteered for.
If now was my moment of choice and I had just passed over, I believe I would not go to the light straight away. It's honestly impossible for me to say though. It's easy to think you'll know what you'll do in a given situation...and then it happens and you really find out.
See, things you say do stay with me haha. I take it all in. 
) Anyway, just a few examples of how the wonderful elixir on the ‘spoon’ I’ve been given has been poured into this realm of being by these dear little friends of mine follow. They have been very helpful to me in small but wonderful ways. They find/return things to me that I’ve lost. They cause plants that I love to flower out of season. They keep all the pests (eg flies, mozzies) away from where we like to sit outside. They help me to understand the natural world around me. And even, oddly, most recently they gave energy to a fluorescent light fitting that I read under that was burning out (flashing on and off, only giving ‘grey’ light) to keep it going for a few weeks until I could get it fixed, haha. “It’s just energy” he said. 
Lionhawk's crop circle 
Being so sensitive I had trouble enough coping with what was around us as it was. And I do know that if I’d told my parents that I saw anything that was out of the ‘norm’, they would have had me in psychiatric care for sure. They did it to my sister when she couldn’t cope with life and she’s still in the system forty years later.
It's ironic that you would be praying for gifts and I was praying for someone to take the gifts I had, away. For that matter, I didn't see it as gifts, but a curse. I didn't understand that a forging was taking place, with all the hardships I had to go through. All I knew was that whatever was going on around me, wasn't normal. Being in reactance mode all the time, wasn't a help either. Hard to evaluate stuff when you are always reacting to something. I always prayed for the other kids too. Not to be going through what I was going through. So be glad that your young life didn't have these weird experiences, Sanicle. I wouldn't wish it on anybody. 
its good, and gives me the time to chew over these concepts.. just need enough energy left at the end of the day and the inclination to open my laptop. 
Were you aware your friend Rodgrigo would have the knowledge to do this with you? I've never heard of anything like that happening before and it sounds, from your story, that neither Sally nor yourself were aware that this type of 'possession' could occur either. 
Was Max surprised when you told him what was going on?