I’ve been having one weird old week. Dreams and not being able to sleep until around 8:00am in the morning has been a big part of it. I ended up doing some tarot readings to find out what on earth is going on with me.
To cut a long story short both the lack of sleep and the dreams pointed towards problems I’m having with overpowering, aggressive, sexually immature men….on inner levels and in the world generally….making me realise how eroded the qualities of integrity, honour and self-control have become in so many men these days (those reading this excluded of course), leading to much of the war, greed, cruelty and promiscuity in our world. And we all know where that conditioning has come from. Watching the ramifications of this in our current world has been difficult enough, but being assaulted with it in dreams and by inner world beings (astral, ET ?) as well is NOT good.
Anyway, what caused me to tell you about this is something that happened today that’s really confusing me.
Back in 1987 I tried doing another series of writings….those in which I take dictation from the voices I hear in my head. I guess some would call it telepathic contact. In this group I was told that I was being prepared for meeting the young man I’ve spoken of before in other threads that visited me in the astral and caused so many traumas for me for so long, until I toughened up anyway. These messages ended up becoming so complex that I gave them away, finding it hard to believe what they were telling me as well. But yeah, he turned up anyway.
The point to this post though is that I remembered that these beings (whoever they were) had told me that the energy of aggression is not innate in humans but is a dark energy we can access when we become polarised towards the ‘dark side’ and that it then acts through us if we will it. The writing included a prayer to recite which prevents these ‘energies of violence’ from attacking us through any person. I recited it of course and have wondered at times since if it did actually work as, despite all the crap that was thrown at me by my ‘dark lover’ and his associates, I’ve never been harmed in any way (apart from psychologically some might say haha…but that’s past history anyway).
So I had the idea to maybe create a thread that included that writing and the prayer as an experiment here to see if anyone else would like to try it. Given the way our world is going, I didn’t think it would do any harm. So I got out my notebooks and went looking for this entry. Now what’s freaked me out today is that I found the entry AND IT’S DIFFERENT. THE PRAYER IS NO LONGER A PART OF IT!! And I
KNOW it was there.
This is not the first time this has happened with these writings either. A few years back I decided to look them up to find the entry in which they’d given a physical description of the man I was to meet, remembering specifically that they’d said he’d be fair-haired. I wanted to read the rest of the description to see if they’d been accurate and he was indeed the one they’d predicted as coming into my life. But I read through every single entry….hundreds of them….and couldn’t find it. I filed that away in the back of my mind, unable to understand it but hey, what could I do.
But now THIS has happened, I’m freaking out just a little, wondering just who or what it’s really all about. Has someone/thing time-travelled to change it? Am I on a different timeline? Am I just going crazy...
Mind you I'm not letting myself get too upset about it as that wouldn't achieve anything. I'm trying to just tackle all the new weirdnesses as they arise to maintain balance as best I can, although they do seem to be increasing. I just thought I'd run it by my friends here to see if you have any thoughts and to let you know what strange things are happening my end.
Did I short out your logic circuit? 
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) Without that memory, we would never know. So somehow there is a disparity with the continuity, a glitch in the matrix, so to speak...
There were other things too that simply reverted back to their previous states after I altered them (deleted data that "magically" reappeared, for one, not to mention items I moved physically and returned to their previous positions without having anyone touched them). Funny thing is that these things happen whenever I feel some weird waves in the ether (can't quite say in the air since the motion is there without air/ground moving). These waves can become so severe I find myself rocking to them feeling seasick, like a child in an egg shell half filled with water and someone's shaking the egg. Sometimes these waves come together whenever quakes happen -- sometimes they just happen.
