ahhh, understood milkT. There is that longing inside to go home - our spiritual home. For many years I felt so alone because of this feeling of being separated from source/divine. There was such a longing and desire for enlightenment. It drove me for many years until that moment outside of space time manifested. I was so surprise. First was the embrace of Christ and a few months later the falling into god consciousness. Both experiences were so different. One was a sense of total acceptance - a coming home and being so lovingly infused with compassion. It was this encounter of compassionate fusion/infusion where home became anywhere I'm at because that awareness was released from within. The second experience is much more expansive which included a completely different awareness and conscious expansion.
Due to these various spiritual experiences sometimes I distance myself from these thoughts and feelings, so that my longing to return to pure spirit doesn't interfere with living a human life with responsibilities to family. There is just so much to continuously learn when it comes to knowing oneself and the multiple layers that exist within one's own subconscious. It appears that the subconscious is the vast ocean and the conscious mind is but standing in a small room. Yet when I remember being embraced - tears flow as that type of love and acceptance is healing - along with a remembering of who one truly is. Being in a human body is truly courageous because of the loneliness one experiences. Being in a human body one experiences what it is to be an individual particle of consciousness in all of its manifestations. The souls who are most courageous are the ones on the planet now who are in positions of witnessing just how terrible it is when spirit is separated from the divine. The further individual spirit moves from divine awareness, the further into darkness one can fall. Some have fallen so far into darkness that any spiritual light is just too painful to endure - so they choose to stay lost and far from divine light.
But the courageous ones stick it out knowing truth is light. And even in these terrible times where soulless ones wander this planet and wreck their havoc creating so much pain and suffering - the witnesses experience deep sorrow and wish this misery ended. I can barely read the news headlines these days, it is truly the darkest before a new spiritual dawn. There is such a deep sadness that these terrible things happen to our fellow spiritual travelers. I just keep telling myself - not much longer and wish those who do these terrible things would come to their senses. Yet, they are so sick in spirit one wonders if they will be able to be saved, or save themselves from the frequency vibration they've allowed themselves to become entrapped in. Even now I worry about my own frequency and work to not get caught up in internal negativity, which is just old habitual mental/emotional patterns that tend to run amuck if not checked at the door of conscious awareness.
I suspect during these times many are longing to escape the negativity in this dimensional world and go home where such negativity does not exist. Yet, how does a soul experience compassion for others without having varied life experiences? It's a conundrum, is it not?
Due to these various spiritual experiences sometimes I distance myself from these thoughts and feelings, so that my longing to return to pure spirit doesn't interfere with living a human life with responsibilities to family. There is just so much to continuously learn when it comes to knowing oneself and the multiple layers that exist within one's own subconscious. It appears that the subconscious is the vast ocean and the conscious mind is but standing in a small room. Yet when I remember being embraced - tears flow as that type of love and acceptance is healing - along with a remembering of who one truly is. Being in a human body is truly courageous because of the loneliness one experiences. Being in a human body one experiences what it is to be an individual particle of consciousness in all of its manifestations. The souls who are most courageous are the ones on the planet now who are in positions of witnessing just how terrible it is when spirit is separated from the divine. The further individual spirit moves from divine awareness, the further into darkness one can fall. Some have fallen so far into darkness that any spiritual light is just too painful to endure - so they choose to stay lost and far from divine light.
But the courageous ones stick it out knowing truth is light. And even in these terrible times where soulless ones wander this planet and wreck their havoc creating so much pain and suffering - the witnesses experience deep sorrow and wish this misery ended. I can barely read the news headlines these days, it is truly the darkest before a new spiritual dawn. There is such a deep sadness that these terrible things happen to our fellow spiritual travelers. I just keep telling myself - not much longer and wish those who do these terrible things would come to their senses. Yet, they are so sick in spirit one wonders if they will be able to be saved, or save themselves from the frequency vibration they've allowed themselves to become entrapped in. Even now I worry about my own frequency and work to not get caught up in internal negativity, which is just old habitual mental/emotional patterns that tend to run amuck if not checked at the door of conscious awareness.
I suspect during these times many are longing to escape the negativity in this dimensional world and go home where such negativity does not exist. Yet, how does a soul experience compassion for others without having varied life experiences? It's a conundrum, is it not?
I knew I would see you if I took that jump out of the water .
-hang on there dear soul)
to all. . . . . .
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