of-fence - de-fence
feelings sorry for oneself
we should be as tolerant as tree
we are soul, beautiful and perfect.
mind is prism we are looking at world through
we need to change the view at the world as souls, feel our soul, know our soul,
learn about our soul. then we will see completely different view.
Our mind reacts based on material world.
When we identify ourselves with body we try to satisfy body desires, mind desires.
When we know we are not this body the view changes.
forgive must be done to start seeing soul, our soul, others.
to change the view to relationship to the world, humans and finally god.
we can do it or we can ignore.
but if we want to be happy we should change ourselves.
people are afraid of religions because they see people label themselves as spiritual
but they act as materialists. This will finaly never work, any religion.
hey, we live in this material world. nothing new under this sun.
the problem is our reactions to the material world. the key response, our response
to this material world.
we have to see soul, material world should become transparent.
the are 4 steps or etapes.
listening
thinking
practice to change algorithm of thinking
changed view, accepting, seeing
nature of offence or resentment or re-sence (again and again and again
and again return to the same feeling of pain we received).
it is very highly powerfull feeling, very sticky to our consciousness
and our mind is looping it again and again. Instead of centering divine
our mind is too busy and heavely looping the feeling becoming center and
and circaling. Our thought return to the feeling again and again. Instead
of putting God in the center, we are putting offence in the center. There
is no place for God anymore. This loop usually never goes away.
We are receiving deep and bright samskara by unkind word, a gesture, a glance,
a strange face mimic when it is thrown to us and as result of not properly
working mechanism of mind and how it perceives, the feelings are increased
and focused by our unhealthy ego to brighten it like magnifying glass to focus, zoom in
even more.
At that point the feeling receives deep imprints of samskara and it becomes
center of our existance for a period of time
we can see that our mind consists of those active unlimited amount of samskaras.
those samskaras are fence that interfere, pervert and does not allow us to see soul.
Offences that we occumulated through ages, they activate itself or can be
activated trigered any time. This bucket of samskaras is our anxiety. or ocean of
anxiety. It has waves in our consciousness. This anxienty nails us down to this
aparatus and does not release us. We can not see soul.
Any samskara that forces us to return again and again is a problem.
Religions call is sin. Stong imprints. Sin is strong imprint in our consciousness.
Sex in marriage is boring it is ok, but sex out of marriage creates many
strong feelings of stimulation, anger, jealousy, heartburning, envy, cheating, greed.
All are bright intense active samskara. Those samskaras always demand constantly
reproduction or those experiences. This is why use of drugs in principle the same
sticky adhesion stuff, any habit that nails us. Any experience locking down and sealing
us, our mind is the problem. This is why it is sin. It makes our mind to
work in perverted way. We will be born again and again.
Offences, drugs, out of marriage sex and meat eating are true problems in
our mind that hold samskaras in active or passive way in various levels and various
terms and lives previous and future.
in short it is desease. (we are all crazy :))
patologija or it is not therapeutically perfect. mental hospital.
we think is it all good, but we need to understand this nature of
pathology of our mind. We think it is ok, everybody does it
it is humility, but it is not.
We should understand that offence is desease. It is the same as
desease of psyhopaty, or sexopathy etc.
Nature of offence is based on unkindness.
Offence source is anger, hatred, rejection (dvesha).
Anger is also desire (modified).
Dvesha is source of our suffering
in other words on the bases of unkindness grow seeds of suffering.
Every living entity is born with those problems.
Offence in deeper meaning is based on unkindness OF not understaning
that I am soul. We are born with this and raga dvesha is there.
We are born with this not understanding of our relationship with god, with this
not understandinf of our self nature.
The problem of offence is that it grows on the bases of this unkindness and
it extends our existance in this unkindness.
Offence as anger, hatred etc are seeds in four states:
burnt up, sleeping, concealed or fully expanded.
First two can be controled by yoga.
There are emotions as anger so high that a person can not sleep.
in a time it can be forgotten, but the seed is sleeping and deep.
The problem is that this sleeping seed can be awaken. We think that
we got rid of bad feelings, we dont have offenses, but when we see similar
pattern or we see the same person again the seed can be triggered and awaken to the extreme again. It affects
our behaviour and etc.
Even the samskara went to sleep, it is still there, in us, sooner or later it will
require demand its own realization. If we have anger, envy and etc. and we will die
we will be born again to revenge. There are scenario maybe others will revenge to us.
No excamptions. All samskaras define our personalities.
To kill samskaras from our mind first they need to be raise up out.
Samskaras control us and sometimes people hate a person who is not the cause
of the previous imprints, but different. One person can hate mother, but the
seed went to sleep and was waken up and the anger released to wife unknowigly
unexplained. The mind can play with us very tricky ugly games
offence is pain, pain generates anger, anger produces pain is our samsara (birth-death cycle)
This pain is like snow ball occumulates more and more pain through ages. It will
run till will destroy this world. It is karma, it the cycle needs to be broken at
some time. It is not a choice of do Forgive or not. It needs to be broken.
Sometimes there are nations that carry somekind of pain and carry somekind of offences and etc.
Swami Prabhupada told a story about a fashist avia pilot who was born next life a jew.
Hitler redirected the samskaras to somewhere, but it caused offences and etc.
When we personally keep any set of dveshas we will be born with them next life.
It is not avoidable. Consiousness contaminated, not cleaned takes to the
material world again into siutable form to release the reaction.
It is law of karma and based all of this on unkindness.
We need to get rid of offences. We are blind attached to dirt. We carry hot charcoals
to be able to revenge, but we are blind to see that we hurt ourselves.
Once a teacher sent his student to hell to bring hot charcoals from hell, but he
received answer 'we do not provide charcoals everybody comes here
with his own charcoals'.:)
Offence is our weapon. If somebody hurt us with needle, we are 'smart' to carry this
needle for long long to revenge with the same needle. Wise ones through away the needle.
Pain happens in life, but the pain is not so bad as our reaction, reaction to pain is
much worse.
To be happy we should not do harm whatever small small it is.
Offence makes our hearts, our consciousness dirty.
When we concentrate on the offence, keep thinking, can not sleep, the problem is
that it takes huge amount of our energy away from our clear consciousness. It takes
mental energy and we live this way like nothing else what to do only think about the offence.
Offence feeds energy out instead to keep the same amount of mind energy to ourselves
and direct to constructive work.
The last offence makes us slaves. We live in prison.
When Mandela was asked if he feels offence to those who kept him in South africa prison,
He said - no, I want to be free. (in heart)
When we keep pain controling us, we are slaves, we serve to anger rulers, envy rulers, unfair rulers
, greed rulers. We live our lives this way for many years and more inslaved voluntarely.
Buddha was confronted by stranger with anger and he spit on Buddha, but Buddha only asked if
he has any question. The stranger thought maybe he is saint and felt very guilty,
so next day he made beautiful flower leises and gave to Buddha to forgive him.
Buddha only asked if he has any question. The stranger became his student and
later asked his teacher why he did not react then.
Buddha answered - I am not your slave, I am not going to become your slave, I am not going to
give away to you the key from my heart.
Offences poisons our existance.
the most powerful factor that effects humanity, destroys the relationship between people, family,
close friends and relatives. When we can not forgive, when we carry offenses it destroys the
relationship between nations, teachers and students, parents and children.
Occumilated pain, offenses destroys atmosthere on all levels of relationships. People can not
see each other, hate each other or just others,in constant disputes in divorces and wars.
And this is Kali Yuga.
Forgiveness.
All religions teach this basic principle forgiviness, however religions are gone. Now we see
international forgiviness institute and makes money..:)
People who carry heavy unresolved deep offences and problems of those offences
they become social psyhopaths, the develop social patology,
they can not relate to other, they can not socialize with other, they project
the pain of offences not solved to the other relationships somewhere, they see enemies everywhere,
they suspect all, everywhere, they see intrigues intrigues against them everywhere and
definately, most likely their hunch, feelings will be realized.
If for example one sipped hot water from a cup and got burned, one may stay thirsty no matter what
he doesn't want to even look at any cup, he is in fear. Soul original nature is relationship,
humans are thirsty in relationship, demand, thirsty for love, but their thirst can not
be realized because of the deep offence experience...
There are people who may have no trust to anyone. They are unsecure and dont trust anyone.
We can meet sometimes a person who is just by
only look at you shows untrust, deep untrust, that even you start feeling somehow quilty
and you find yourself trying to come up with nonsense explanations as being quilty before him.
Those people see intriques everywhere and from some little thing they develop big theories,
plots, endless doubts... unsecurity, proficiency in distrust has deep roots and the big
problem is this kind of person will never be able to surrender to Krishna.
He doesn't trust God too. Because God is Person.
Prabhupada explained that source of impersonalism is the pain that humans experiencing in
their own relashionships. It is that source of mayavadis, buddists, atheists, voidists. They carry
that pain, they deeply do not want to be a person, they feel subconsciously the fear, pain,
offence, they would like to dissapear. The not resolved pain is not realized pain. They
seek peace into wrong experience, from the fear they subconsciously wait who will offend them
and finally as usually their prediction - I knew it will happened happens.
The problem with social patology is in material world, but in spiritual aspect the
final problem is patology in relashionship with Krishna. He can not trust Him, it is hard.
Offence makes human stupid. It is not overstatement.
We as soul viewing through the prism of mind and Offence perverts our view of world.
We see distorted view of world, others. It makes us to see world, ourselves and
others not right, incorrectly. It makes us to react to everything and others inadequate.
Did you ever met a person that you feel that he is not crazy but fully inadequate kind of. Then
you think if he is like this or he is pretending... But the truth is that the person sees world
a bit preverted, it is his view, some important big things for him is nothing, not noticed
and some little things in the world seems big deal...
We are all crazy! Congratulations!
The problem is that important things we do not notice and for not important we pray.
To love God is big thing, but we move it to later. We are off, we are inadequate,
We worry about little unsignificant things
and this is mechanism of Maya - illiusion. Congrats. Illiusion is in our mind.
Forgiviness
Live in kindness, goodness means to be free in heart
Confusius wrote that people who are angry, in fear and full of desires
can not be free in heart. Those who can not be free in heart hear not heard, see not seen,
taste tastless indifferentiate taste.
Free soul, who can see with soul hear with soul, taste with soul.
Drop by drop the accumulated dust stays through many lifes and it is must to clean
heart from offence, form of anger potency.
It is because our mind aparatus is perverted, we do not hear, we do not see.
Buddists saying : There is no place in any ocean, in any sky, in any mountain,
in any place in the planet where a man could free an anger from his own heart.
If we feel offence we need vidya moksha. In materialistic way Forgiveness
Forgive - for - give give away it. or in other words recenter focus to God,
brake the cycle in mind, in samsara.
who wants to be happy?
Swami Prabhupada's teachings