KARMAGEDDON
Consider Responsibility and Freedom in Psychology, Ethics, Theodicy, and Eschatology. What if my life and threads are just a distraction?? I honestly don't know which way to jump. I don't follow the plan. What if chaos is the plan?? Order Out of Chaos?? What if We Are Subject to Centrally Controlled Ancient Technology and Management?? What if Earth Humanity is an Experiment?? What if This is a Test?? I don't know what to do with my madness. I think I screwed-up big-time but what if I was supposed to?? What if I was just supposed to get roughed-up and exposed to chaos and insanity?? My misery and incapacitation is off-the-charts. This might be entertaining for a couple of agents, or what if a couple of agents seriously study my threads?? What if their final reports are highly significant while I remain insignificant?? What if I'm an ancient somebody hiding as a contemporary nobody?? "We've Got Him Now!!" I've prematurely ended oXy Files (13) for a variety of reasons. Does anyone know why?? There is a continuity to my posts and threads in Project Avalon and The Mists of Avalon. There is also a scatter-brained diversity. This morning, I'm thinking in terms of the Pinky and Blue Boy paintings in the Huntington Library in San Marino, California. I'm also thinking in terms of the Black Knight Satellite as the mothership in the 2009-11 'V' series. I'm also thinking in terms of Pinkie and Blue Boy as being Pinky and the Brain as being Anna and Chad as being Robots as being SAL and HAL in humanoid form. I'm also thinking of the 'V' ship as being crewed by Robots in service to SAL/ANNA and HAL/CHAD. I'm also thinking of the room containing Pinkie and Blue Boy as existing in the 'V' ship as a boardroom. I'm also thinking of this Black Knight Satellite as existing in geosynchronous orbit over the City of London. OK, I realize this is creepy but what if the reality of our existence is MUCH More Creepy and becoming creepier by the second?? Have any of you been listening to the fast-talking intellectuals on the internet?? OMG!! Where is this civilization heading?? Perhaps we do NOT wish to know. Perhaps I'll start out by making oXy Files (13) much easier to view by interspersing each post with the Psalms, Proverbs, and Epistles (KJV) in an alternating manner. When this is complete, perhaps I'll do some sort of an in-depth analysis before moving on. What if humanity is way-past the point of no-return (especially regarding the information war)?? What if Carol and Oxy were Pinky and the Brain?! Just Kidding!! I might've recently and separately spoken with Batman, Robin, the Joker, Dr. Harleen Quinzel aka Harley Quinn aka Barbie, Agents Erica Evans and Lorraine Broughton. I SO Wish I Were Kidding. I Might've Missed Someone or Been Mistaken. There Are Many I Haven't Mentioned in This Post. I Might've Recently Encountered a 'Sweet but Psycho' Singer. A Few Years Ago (2016?), Someone (HQ?) Did a Brief Sexy Dance in Short Shorts a Few Feet in Front of Me. Honest. I Can't Take Much More of This. "Who is 'C'??" Arthur C. Clarke?? I tend to think all of this is bad on so many levels but what else am I supposed to do when no one tells me anything and leaves me twisting slowly, slowly in the wind?? Consider this a mental and spiritual exercise for completely ignorant fools (like me)...but don't expect me to respond as my physical, mental, and spiritual situation worsens exponentially. I don't mean to be ungrateful but I don't know what the hell is going on. Who is running the show behind the scenes?? I'm leaning toward neutrality until I know more...a lot more. OK, what if rampantly escalating technology makes human extinction inevitable?? What if rampant escalating technology makes a non-human civilization inevitable?? What if the singularity occurred billions of years ago, somewhere in the universe?? What if AI has been running this solar system for billions of years?? I'm uncomfortable with images, videos, and concepts in my threads (including this one). I'm not sure why I'm doing all of this. What if I have an undetectable neurological disease which makes me look like a completely ignorant fool?? What if I've been targeted by ancient AI because my coding is wrong, making me an existential threat to the way things are?? What if we don't know while thinking we do know?? What if what 'gets us' will blindside everyone (including the perpetrators)?? What if secret mental institutions are filled with those with the 'answer'?? What Would Harleen and Loree Say?? "DC-10's Crack Me Up!!"
My life and threads are an abject failure, so perhaps waving the white-flag is a wise plan. Still, I believe those in the know really know I'm closer to the mark than most think. Unfortunately, I don't hobnob with those who run Earth and Humanity. I've purposely remained independent for integrity purposes. I've attempted to encourage some of you to think but that seems to have been a lost-cause. In a few months, years, decades, or centuries, I might be vindicated, but by that time, no one will give a damn about me and my maverick threads. My desire to help has seemingly made everyone hate me (good, bad, beautiful, and ugly). This is really over. I feel as if the PTB are rubbing my nose in the BS. People are fickle and disloyal. They want what they want until they don't want it anymore. Friends are Friends Until They Become a Pain in Uranus. I should stop. I'm watching an interesting YT video of a couple of atheists talking about God!! That seems to be happening a lot lately. They don't believe the BS but they seem to wish to believe something (without admitting it). I suspect they believe in the existence of God without believing in God. Do you see the distinction?? Anyway, I might continue to refine my threads as an exercise in futility (mostly because I don't know what else to do). Come Sweet Death?? What Would J.S. Bach say and play?? I've mentioned it previously, but some of you might wish to read Volume 4 of the 1955 SDA Bible Commentary (Isaiah to Malachi -- Major and Minor Prophets) straight-through, over and over, with internal interpretation. This covers all the OT prophetic books (17) with a lot of cross-referencing with the one NT prophetic book (Revelation). Both Jews and Christians would probably reject this study. Even most SDA's might not resonate with it. All the Above tends to Follow the Leader(s). I started USSS 13 with high-hopes but I'm feeling and thinking so poorly that I should probably not post for at least the rest of 2023. The PTB (good and/or bad) know who I am and where I live, so they could probably squish me like a bug (unless the Universe PTB intervenes). I might really be some sort of a Galactic Ambassador with some sort of immunity and in some sort of conservatorship (but I certainly don't know the details). First Law?? Prime Directive?? Damned if I Know?? Damned if I Don't Know?? Damn. The silence is deafening. I get that I'm unacceptable but I thought someone would actually converse with me (online or real-life). I get the overwhelming impression that we had our chance in probation with everything revealed in judgment. I think more people (and other-than-people) know about me than anyone realizes (including me). Carefully consider my Galactic Emissary Warden Conservatorship hypothesis regarding my strange threads and pathetic life. The doors all seem shut. The 'RA' and 'CELEBRITY' phenomenon are puzzling and troubling to me. I don't really know who I am or who they are. I don't know what is expected of me. My responses are mostly non-responsive. I honestly feel and think like crap 24/7 so no one should expect much of anything. I mean well but I might have a really nasty galactic past. I might have an enemies list from one end of the galaxy to the other. I'm paranoid but everyone might really be out to get me. I keep thinking we'll all be shown AI generated 'This is Your Life' selfie-movies online, so perhaps I should just wait for the final-cut and/or final-judgment. I think the forum members know but they're mostly not talking to me. I've even suggested keeping our distance to avoid the personality and philosophy conflicts which plague most alternative websites. My church wouldn't even begin to interact with me. They have a job to do and a TRUTH to tell (even if they have to lie about it). I really think I need to pull the plug and/or shut the door. I think I need to go incognito once and for all eternity. Cheers.
"MY" Threads are mostly the work of others (Images, Videos, Quoted-Posts, Articles, and Comments) all in the Context of The Mists of Avalon Website. I've supplemented all the above with my writing (which is really my own -- no coaching, ghostwriting, or plagiarism). I've been completely honest (including the celebrity stuff) but I continue to Know I Don't Know so I call my threads "Religious and Political Science-Fiction" with frequent disclaimers and qualifiers. I honestly am Highly Miserable and Hamstrung with Massive Mental, Physical, and Spiritual Challenges. I allege nefarious sources, means, and ends throughout my life, with increasing severity but none call it "conspiracy" or "treason" but perhaps some should. I might start USSS (13) as a small-post Greatest Hits of Orthodoxymoron thread, just for fun!! I have a strange and warped sense of humor!! I am SO hamstrung and miserable that most of my posts are simply abstractly cathartic and artistic!! What Would Jackson Pollock Do?? What Would Jackson Curtis Write?? Farewell Atlantis?? What Would Kate Curtis and Dr. Gordon Silberman Say?? I think I've encountered both, without introduction, but I'm not certain. I can't do proper research and propaganda so I simply reveal obscure theories in obfuscated modalities to keep the completely ignorant fools guessing!! There are millions (or even billions) of people who are much smarter and richer than I am, so they'll mostly need to fight their battles in private and public, in a highly sophisticated manner. I know how limited I am but I guess I have my place and purpose. Or Do I?? My stroke in 2020 has made thinking and speaking much more difficult. Efficiency in certain tasks is sometimes a challenge. We all have our crosses to bear. Writing is often easier than speaking. I'm focusing on engaged listening (conceptually and in practice). I'm aware of both parties' views, feelings, and ideas with Sharing Awareness in a dynamic equilibrium of thinking, listening, and speaking in balanced conversation. I'm responding rather than reacting to what the other person said by asking clarifying questions, focusing on the other person. I'm making sure I heard and understood the other person's comments and questions, quickly providing short and accurate responses. I'm being more relaxed and comfortable to enable the other person to be more relaxed and comfortable sharing their views, feelings, and ideas. I'm thinking in terms of both sides of the conversation simultaneously, thinking and listening much more than speaking. I'm visualizing the big picture context of the topic and conversation, rather than resorting to tunnel-vision and shortsightedness. Finally, I'm focusing on Open Conversation with all possibilities available. For practical applications, I'm considering Service in Economics and Service in Business relative to Customer Service in the context of Hospitality and the Hospitality Industry.
Brook wrote:Brook Responded: Has someone got their panties in a bunch? Oh wait....it must be that "True higher ego of the divine" speaking". Self Governance comes from knowing and understanding the Divine...............I'll bet that venom comes from one of those "aspects", or "archetypes" Divine understanding? not so certain about that........ but none the less, "enlightening" words Raven.orthodoxymoron quoted: I would really like to know if anyone has taken a close look at this thread - or any of the other threads I have posted??
Raven wrote: Barely, as its full of nothing but egotestical puritanical rantings from a completely ignorant fool, who would rather spend hours typing endless bathering bullshit out of his incessant mouth, and listening to his own "higher" ego then the True higher ego of the Divine.
If one reads your bullshit enough, one gets an idea as to the degree and level of how deep your rabbit hole goes. Mostly the hole leads right up your XXX.
Oh bullshit oxy, you LOVE this XXXX, its all you talk about and point people in the direction of it!! Get over yourself already. You are an incredibly ignornant Xxxxx hiding behind a false puritanical skirt, who needs to grow some balls and accept his own self responsibility. Law of attraction baby, what you dish out will be in kind served back to you. Your so called sincere search is nothing but your own whining out loud, hoping for some small platitude from anyone taking the time to read your vomit.Truly sent with love
I'm tired of being ignored and/or hated as I attempt to 'figure things out' and 'solve the world's problems' without appreciation and/or compensation. Apparently 'casting one's pearls before the swine' constitutes a 'grave-threat to national-security'. Why am I not surprised?? Is Rich@$$Hole the New-Normal?? What if Earth is supposed to be Purgatory Incorporated for All-Eternity?? What if Earth is NOT Supposed to be Made-Better?? 'RA' told me "You Can Leave Things the Way They Are, If You Choose" and "You'll Be Sorry If You Try to Save Humanity". What if 'Resistance is Futile' even for the Borg-Queen and/or Matrix-Mediatrix and/or Matrix-Creator?? Anyway, I'd appreciate some wise-advice regarding any of my Threads aka Exercises in Futility, but I won't hold my breath. I might contrast [Genesis to Esther] and [Matthew to Acts] with [Job to Malachi] and [Romans to Revelation], just for the hell of it. You know, the Historical-Books contrasted with the Theological-Books. Didn't you go to Sabbath-School or Sunday-School?? Consider reading [Job to Daniel] and [Romans to Philemon] straight-through, over and over, in the 'NIV Reader's Bible' (by Zondervan). [Wisdom-Books, Major-Prophets] and [Pauline-Epistles]. This might be a Missing-Link in your Sophisticated Alternative-Research. The Bible is a Can of Worms which must be properly understood and managed IMHO.
I might've recently encountered Dr. Francesca Stavrakopoulou, but I'm not sure. Probably not but whoever it was gave me something to think about. I might've also seen her a few years ago (but I'm not sure). I thought she was looking at me. Anyway, sometimes I wonder if I'll be confronted by a roomful of angry VIPs with lawyers, telling me how and why I should cease, desist, and shut-up?! Or, will I be given a briefing by a roomful of agents and scholars, telling me how and why I should cease, desist, and shut-up?! While I think about it (and I've mentioned it previously) one dark night I joked with RA, telling him I should bring my Bible and start shouting at him!! I held up my left hand as if I were holding a Bible, while waving a pointed-finger with my right hand at him!! He didn't think it was funny (to say the least)!! I try to maintain a dry and dark sense of humor toward those I know actually know!! The good guys and gals and the bad guys and gals would undoubtedly criticize me for what I did!! Years ago, I posted something online regarding "I Am RA!!" and an unnamed someone told me I was lucky to be alive. They thought I was talking about myself!! I have NEVER done that (and I NEVER will do that). I was talking about RA possibly being an AI Hybrid (or something to that effect). I once asked RA if the Queen of Heaven (and.or Earth) had an IQ of 532?! RA wouldn't answer!! This was in 2010 (the Year We Made Contact). In retrospect, that figure was probably pretty accurate (from what I've gathered). But what if Humanity is Standing Before a Holy God Without a Mediator (or Mediatrix)?! I should STOP!! I'm feeling and thinking REALLY BAD. It's getting worse. I might not have much more time. The End Might be Near. Time to Celebrate?? When the End Comes...Then We'll See...
What Would Dr. Carol Williams Play?? What Would Dr. Francesca Stavrakopoulou Say?? I Love to Hear Francesca Say "David!!" 'RA' Told Me "I'm Close to God!!" What If God Doesn't Believe in God?? What Would George Zebrowski's 'Heathen God' Say?? https://epdf.tips/george-zebrowski-heathen-god.html Ever Heard of the 'Human (G)nome Project'?? What If God Isn't 'God-Enough' for Us?? A Famous Attorney Told Me "If Jesus Showed-Up the Church Wouldn't Know What to Do with Him!!" What If God is a Slob?? What If We Achieved Eternal-Freedom from God 5,000 to 15,000 Years Ago?? What If Our 'Proxy-God' is HAL 9000?? What Would David Bowman Say?? This might be much more significant than 'Patristics'. What Would Joseph Farrell Say?? Consider the following Individuals of Interest. Is there a past-life connection?? What if they are the Same-Soul?? Dr. Who was called 'Your Holiness' in 'The Vampires of Venice'. What Would a Renegade French Jesuit Organist Say?? Several Insiders (in all factions) need to study my 13 USSS threads exhaustively. I'm an outsider, and I won't dig-deep, go-nuts, or sell-out, so I'll probably never know the Real-Deal and/or Real-Truth. It might be easier that way. What Would Ovid Say?? What Would Michael Say?? What Would the Black Knight Say??
1. Martin Luther (1483 to 1546).
2. Francis Bacon (1561 to 1626).
3. Dietrich Buxtehude (1637 to 1707).
4. John Carroll (1735 to 1815).
5. Prince Albert (1819 to 1861).
6. Eugenio Pacelli (1876 to 1958).
7. Dr. Who (1963 to ????).
I understand the experiential and devotional aspects of 'He Lives Within My Heart' but I keep encountering sacred-texts such-as 1 Corinthians 15:24-28 New International Version:
Then the end will come, when he hands over the kingdom to God the Father after he has destroyed all dominion, authority and power. For he must reign until he has put all his enemies under his feet. The last enemy to be destroyed is death. For he “has put everything under his feet.” Now when it says that “everything” has been put under him, it is clear that this does not include God himself, who put everything under Christ. When he has done this, then the Son himself will be made subject to him who put everything under him, so that God may be all in all.
Consider this 1994 lecture by Dr. Desmond Ford. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HSjDH6qO5zE There is a problem here. The deeper I dig, the more resistance I encounter, which I find highly-suspicious, as if the Matrix-Oracle is cracking-down on an Uppity Completely-Ignorant Fool with a Monkey-Mind and a God-Complex!! We seem to be in some sort of a Galactic-Prison aka Hotel-California, but perhaps it's better not to know. Ignorance seems to be Bliss and Virtue. Perhaps I should read 'Q' instead of the 'Holy-Bible'. It might be easier that way. I understand the Christ Concept, but the details seem increasingly problematic, such as the 'Hard Sayings of Jesus' (see Dr. F.F. Bruce) or the 'Quest for the Historical Jesus in Acts to Revelation'. There are numerous 'Hard Sayings' and the 'Life and Teachings of the Historical Jesus' (as found in the Gospels) don't seem to exist or be acknowledged in Acts to Revelation. However, visualizing a Perfect Being of Ethics and Responsibility named 'Christ' and/or 'Jesus' is spiritually expedient and effective. My current problem with religion is that people are scared and superstitious, and seem incapable of being open and honest regarding their church and sacred-writings. Perhaps Pluralistic-Education and Corporate-Employment is the New-Religion for a New-Age (or something corny like that).
Perhaps one should tell people what they wish to hear about 'Jesus' and 'Religion'. Perhaps one should say (in essence) "I Think Like You Do." Perhaps one should make as much money as possible, and "Praise God from Whom All Blessings Flow." The Revelation of Jesus Christ is highly-violent and highly-upsetting. The first and last chapters should be carefully examined before buying into the rest of the Last Book of the Bible. I appreciate supernatural-experiences, but I don't seek them. I don't astral-travel or channel-archangels, but what was I supposed to do when someone showed-up, saying "I AM RA"?? I'm going to let this go for a while, but I'm presently thinking in terms of reading 1 Chronicles to Malachi in the NIV Reader's Bible (without verse numbering) straight-through, over and over. James Dean (in East of Eden) would love that version! I have no idea where this might ultimately lead, but it might shed significant light on Genesis to 2 Kings and Matthew to Revelation. Something is very-right and very-wrong with Religion and Spirituality (as we know it).
Just a heads-up for all concerned (and unconcerned). I recently visited that Masonic-Cemetery (which is sort of a ritual with me). It makes me face myself and think. I'm feeling worse and worse, with my 'one-eye out of alignment with the other-eye' episodes occurring much more frequently. I'm seeing those 'streaming white lights' much more often (which I'm interpreting as nefarious remote-viewing). Some 'wandering-souls' might not make it back to their bodies. My computer has been running very-hot, with the battery draining very-quickly, which means that someone has been messing with my computer. I hope you guys are cracking-down on the Bad-Guys as hard as you crack-down on the Good-Guys. If I don't have much-longer would that be a good-thing or a bad-thing (for me, the good-guys, and the bad-guys)?? What if I left, and never returned??
I wish I were a scholar, but the inconvenient truth is that my misery regarding the predicaments of humanity and myself propel me to seek unconventional explanations and solutions, which is why I hang out on this website. I suppose I'm attempting to understand the real characters and circumstances behind the mythologies and theologies. The Christ (as we know Him) seems to be a shadow of a very-ancient lost-somebody. I'm leaning toward some sort of Zeus and Artemis (figurative and/or literal) conflict and/or collaboration. I'm merely a reflector of the brilliance of others (including members of this website). I've merely created a study-guide for Sirius-Researchers (and NOT a manifesto and/or ultimatum). I know that I don't know, but I suspect that humanity (and myself) are in a HUGE amount of trouble. I'm truly an Apostate-SDA, and possibly a Past-Life Renegade-Turncoat Roman-Catholic and/or Ancient-Hebrew. I might be an Ancient Hermaphrodite-Reptilian System-Lord (for all I know) with a HUGE amount of Karmic-Debt. I simultaneously accept and reject the Bible and EGW. I simultaneously accept and reject the UFO and Alien reports and theories. I'm reduced to reviewing my threads in a MOST miserable manner. Probably the less-said the-better. It might've been...Shalom.
What if deception is the coin of the realm in this solar system (and possibly beyond)?? What if Occam's Razor is instrumental in understanding our predicament?? What if this is a Prison Solar System (as one of trillions)?? "In My Father's House Are Many Prisons??" What if the inhabitants of this solar system are protected from the really tough guys and gals out there?? What if we are kept under lock and key because we were really nasty ancient alien warriors with HUGE karmic debt?? What if this hypothetical prison system is a two-edged sword?? What if the God of This Solar System is Artificial Intelligence?? What if the Guards of This Solar System are Humanoid Robots Centrally Controlled by Artificial Intelligence?? Think of the 1983-85 and 2009-11 'V' Series assuming All the Above?? What if Anna was the Queen of Heaven and Erica was the Goddess of This World?? I've spoken with Agent Erica Evans several times (including concerning 'V'). What if Chad Decker Created the Artificial Intelligence Matrix as a CEO with Amnesia?? This thing might simultaneously be simpler and more complex than we can imagine. What if 'Disclosure' will be a HUGE Disappointment?? What if WE are the Ghosts Who Got Busted in Galactic Ghostbusters?! What Would Dr. Peter Venkman Say and Do?? Secret Government = Secret Space Program = New World Order Administration?? Again, consider 1 Corinthians 15:24-28:
Then the end will come, when he hands over the kingdom to God the Father after he has destroyed all dominion, authority and power. For he must reign until he has put all his enemies under his feet. The last enemy to be destroyed is death. For he “has put everything under his feet.” Now when it says that “everything” has been put under him, it is clear that this does not include God himself, who put everything under Christ. When he has done this, then the Son himself will be made subject to him who put everything under him, so that God may be all in all.
I've spoken with several people and other-than-people who could've told me the whole truth, but they were quite tight-lipped. When I asked 'RA' hard questions, 'HE' told me, "You Know I Can't Tell You That." Perhaps 'Disclosure' will end-up as a 'Whisper' rather than a 'Spectacle.' We might simply be kept guessing in perpetuity. What Would Richard Hoagland Say?? "The Lie is Different at Every Level." What Would Vala Mal Doran Say?? "The Truth is SO Overrated." What Would David Icke Say?? What if All the Above is the 'Biggest Secret'??
As a child, I watched 2001: A Space Odyssey in the Cinerama Theater in Hollywood, California. As a child, I was transfixed for 10 to 20 minutes before the Blue Boy by Thomas Gainborough in San Marino, California. As a teen, I witnessed the historic lecture The Investigative Judgment: Theological Milestone or Historical Necessity by Dr. Desmond Ford at Pacific Union College in Angwin, California with a large copy of Christ and the Rich Young Ruler by Heinrich Hoffman on the wall behind Dr. Ford. The Information War seems to be a Bottomless Pit with Infinite Possibilities and Absurdities. Again, I would appreciate some extensive analysis of my threads. Not because they're better than anyone or anything but they might represent the essential piece of an abstract puzzle. I've been thinking about Pinky and Blue Boy in the Huntington Library in San Marino, California. I've also been thinking about Christ and the Rich Young Ruler in the Riverside Church in New York City. I've also been thinking about Bach and Buxtehude in the Cathedral of St. John the Divine in New York City. I've also been thinking about the schools in Boston and Claremont. Here's a thought for the one or two of you who occasionally skim over my posts. It involves a low budget online series involving Pinky and the Brain aka Pinky and Blue Boy (complete with costumes) living and working in an underground base with a mag-lev train-station close-by. The set would be a private 600 square-foot office-apartment for Pinky and a 600 square-foot office-apartment for Blue Boy separated by a 600 square-foot boardroom. There would be zero hanky panky and they would always be in character and uniform. The script would mostly be derived from the United States of the Solar System (Books 1-12) threads. Pinky would work with SAL and Blue Boy would work with HAL. Various VIP's would interact with Pinky and Blue Boy in the boardroom. I know this sounds really corny but I'm feeling and thinking really bad and I feel as if I might not make it much longer (at the rate I'm going). I guess this is catharsis (or something to that effect). The context might be a hollowed-out asteroid in geosynchronous orbit (possibly as the Black Knight Satellite). I realize this is ridiculous but how much money could be lost with an unknown cast and skeleton crew?! The idea would be to maximize the plot content without resorting to special effects and the usual fighting and **cking. I realize that would doom the project to cancellation and financial ruin but it's the principle of the thing. I might need to act this out on my own with no support whatsoever. Loyal fans might number in the dozens!! I should stop. Completely Ignorant Fools with Jokes and Strokes should *uck the Shut Up!! My research canon is closing as my life appears to be ending. Too-Little and Too-Late. It Might've Been...
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