I cringed / I know my husband is cheeky . He is not violent or cruel . He is the biggest softy . But I realize more now that knowing what I went through he is carrying a lot of anger and pain and when the mods turned on him he could not resist giving them a dose of their own medicine . He should have ignored them from the start but maybe it would make no difference .
Its funny . He is a good writer , fast, brutally honest and witty . But it does make enemies . I asked him how he makes it look so easy and he just said "write from the heart and the words will just flow ' . So i just went for it and he is right . You dont think you just do it like you are talking to a friend . Its really not that hard . Now I know why he likes it so much .
So it all started in a way the day I tried to take my own life . If I had not tried to commit suicide I would never have learned how to live .
I was heavily abused as a child . My stepfather was a pedophile . A greedy businessman . My mother a selfish vain blue blood alcoholic .
I was separated from my twin brother when my parents divorced so I had abandonment issues big time. I enjoyed wealth and privilege but I was not happy .
But the day I tried to take my own life something went wrong and I ended up still alive . I really did jump off a cliff but then I woke up later under a tree at the bottom , not a scratch . I told this bit in much more detail on PA but I cant be bothered to tell it all again .
I was taken in by my Uncle who became my mentor and protector . He was the only person in my family I trusted . He protected me from my parents and gave me a reason to live . He reset my life with new friends , new ideas , new ways of seeing the world . He was an amazing human being .
I have to get a coffee . I hope you people dont mind if I come back and do this bit by bit .