Don't Laugh. Your Daughter Might Be Inside.
I should finish my BR Download tonight or tomorrow, and I'll try to give it a rest for a while. However, I have some historical material to post relative to current posting by me and others, but I might not start with that for another week or two. Actually, I might not start. Period. It's getting that bad. As you know, I try not to dig too deep and fast, and I honestly could, but I'd rather not. I am honestly miserable and hamstrung to an unimaginable extent. God Got Me?? The Matrix Made Me Do It?? Damned If I Know. Damned If I Don't Know. Damned If I Do. Damned If I Don't. Damn.
If your so happy ,why do you protest and project on to me your own inner anguish , City Dweller ? Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds. Or makes exceptions for those who do not tow the party line. If your 'happy' then that's all that matters . But when some people protest to much its hard to avoid the impression there is unresolved hand baggage. Why do you even bother with 'worst offenders' ? Let it go . Before I came along ? Did we have some kind of secret Trist I am not aware of ? Did you develop some kind of attachment to me ? You see ,whats happening is that you are subconsciously emoting towards me to fill an emptiness . Now I am not judging you for that. You are. This is what happens when loneliness confronts truth. Don't be ashamed of what your feeling , get more aware of what your really saying . Through all the vicissitudes of corporate lab management a bright innocent young assistant starts work. Fresh out of University with a Degree in applied cloning technologies .A rookie with a soft heart in the wrong game. She starts out at the bottom ,cleaning out the cages , monitoring the new births and doing all the grunt work for the lab techs and senior research scientists . One day she watches a mother rat give birth ,fascinated by the loving attention the mother gives her new babies . For reasons she cant quite explain she feels compelled to keep a close eye on this litter. After a while she notices one young rat amongst all the pink eyed albinos has astonishingly beautiful bright blue eye's . She picks it up out of the cage and stares in to its eye's, captivated by the color and sparkle behind it . Then she does something that is a cause for instant dismissal .She gives it a name . Worse, she fakes its death in the Log book and takes it home. The name she gives the Rat is Nordy . Nordy becomes more than just a pet , he becomes her best friend because he is so funny ,cheeky and alive . She could swear he listens intently to her when she talks to him and he watches her when she sits at her lap top, patiently observing . On weekends she takes him shopping and he snuggles in her Blouse , peaking his head out as she wanders through the market . He is quite simply adorable . She gets a tee shirt made that says 'love me ,love my rat'. Its a joke but its somehow serious too. And it becomes Nordy's favorite top too. Nordy and Sarah become inseparable but she knows she must keep Nordy a secret from everyone at work. If word got out she would be the laughing stock and loose her job . She cant see why its such a big deal but its in the contract for some stupid reason......... One thing is for sure .You dont learn much about life or nature living in a cage or box. Often the prison isn't physical but mental .People in Fear are afraid to take risks of any kind. In its extreme form its called agoraphobia. Most people have a milder sub clinical form which is sanitized and called Normality. So its okay to be normal ? I don't think so . People who are in a constant state of fear tend to lash out for no apparent reason , but look a bit deeper and the reason is actually quite obvious. Sensual deprivation or in the common tongue , loneliness. But since loneliness is equated with failure , no one will admit to it openly. Travel for any length of time on your own and you will overcome shyness . The isolation combined with confronting each day as it comes soon teaches you to be adaptable and open. In the old days they called it pilgrimage or peregrination . Normality frowns on freedom so it replaces it with the Bullshit equivalent , Democracy . Or mob rule for short. Sameness replaces individuality and cloning starts to make sense to people who want to be THE SAME. funny how that works. There comes a breaking point when the self denial can no longer be contained and the lonely person reaches that place called desperation and shouts out . It could be a friend or work colleague or online acquaintance but whoever it is will have to process a barrage of pent up emotion . Ordinarily that pent up emotion is cynically channeled and harvested by the Church and state and corporate world for profit . But sometimes it leaks out elsewhere . Art , music , riots , forums. In dreams , the soul is trying to tell a story too , but most people make no effort at all to interpret their Dreams . That's a great loss . So what do most people do to damp down this emotional Fire ? They reinvent it and start to lie . They make up cover stories just like their govt does. Women can be the worst offenders in this regard . If they are attracted to a man they wont just say 'Hey fella I totally fancy you ,why dont you invite me out sometime ?' Oh no . Quite the opposite. They will make a scene over some silly thing and expect you to figure it out . Men then find themselves in the dubious entrapping position of decoding an agenda that is deliberately ambiguous and men don't like ambiguity. This is where it pays to do your Handbag Psychology homework guys or face the consequences. Failing that the avatar they choose is usually very indicative. Women are born advertisers. What made you think I was talking about you ? Do you suffer from the delusion you are the only female on the planet too ? If you don't believe me , try checking out the availability of a wide range of handbags that cater to every psychological profile down at Victoria markets . Or David Jones has a good selection if your taste leans more to the conventional . Controlling women is very profitable for the cabal because many women will happily pay twice as much for clothes/accessories of half the quality than men will put up with. Men have many faults but by and large they are better able to asses the relative real value of things and not waste so much time on body and clothes Image. Isolating women from real choices by indulging their vanity is the Cabals main tool of control. The cabal is male dominated so what would you expect ? In the mean time I have a story to tell and the story is not based on you or anyone else on this forum . Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental . Enjoy the ride . The story Tellers and cartoonists are an interesting bunch. Traditionally anarchic they get away with telling the truth by anthropomorphism .Turning their stories about humans in to animals. Pinky and the Brain Being a classic example amongst many . Professional psychology is a rats nest of abuse. Easily seduced by the influence they enjoy over their patients , many mental health professionals prey on their clients . But if you can find a good one they can be an enormous help in dealing objectively with your unresolved hand baggage. That's why they limit hand luggage on planes. Because women carry way to much . Just kidding. Nordy did not mind being left at Sarah's home and having the run of the house everyday at first .He toilet trained himself and never left a mess . Pee went in the pot plants and the toilet seat was always left up for him to do his number two's. Sarah was that rare female who could accommodate a male rats needs and not make an issue out of it . But eventually his curiosity got the better of him and Sarah , being an intensely practical introverted type had a very large leather Handbag she took to work . Nordy just cadged a lift one morning when she was not looking. He knew he was not supposed to so it was the first secret he kept from her . He felt bad about that but he also felt very protective of Sarah and needed to know what she did during the day . Sarah had only a basic security clearance at the Lab and worked in the nursery section only. She had no access to the other parts of the lab at all. Better perhaps if she had never found out what happened elsewhere. But in the canteen she started to notice a guy that drew her eye . He was a techy by the look of it . Some what careless of his dress habits but he had an easy and kind smile . So one day Sarah deliberately accidentally spilled some coffee on him as she squeezed past him . That's how they met , over coffee. Destiny ? perhaps. One thing lead to another and Mike who had fancied her too from the first time he saw her took her out on a date. First date's are not for pets so Nordy had to stay at home . He was cool with that because he liked Mike. Its a given on this planet where choice is limited to one ,that in relationships you are conditioned to look for love within strictly defined boundaries of class religion, race, skin color , nationality, etc. Some choice. So with that level of cultural behavioral conditioning there is a tendency for artificiality and manipulation to enter people's interpersonal relationships. Or in crude language ,selling lies to get the guys. When a woman who is insecure therefore tries to get a mans attention she will do the very thing that works against her efforts. She will criticize him unfairly. Whats even more astonishing though is her failure to realize this behavior pattern will NEVER WORK. Ever. Men are every bit as vulnerable to criticism as women if not more so. Until they grow up at least . Most men never do reach psychological maturity though . The cabal cant control men and women who do. They need infantile dependence to maintain control and have an army of 'experts' to define your tolerated behaviors , such as Doctors ,scientists ,professors and Shrink's. Inverting truth and making false accusation is their main trick . But it only works on the weak minded. It is very typical for guilty parties to feign indignation and project their crimes on to the very person who exposes their lies . The term for this is projection . Kind of like Projectile ,being a Bullet. Its also axiomatic of control based tyranny's that they routinely censor/delete any and all information that could incriminate them. Truth embraces disclosure , liars routinely bury the truth. Sarah and Mike ,being shrewd individuals , knew that they needed to keep their relationship quiet to avoid unwelcome attention from the security police so they avoided moving in together . This put a strain on things sometimes but they learned to accept it. Sarah Noticed that Mike was reluctant to talk to much about his job and he kept it to very generalized comments. But true love does not like to keep secrets and one day when the large part of the staff was away for one of those 'team development training' trips Mike walked in to the Nursery and said "Come with me". Sarah could not believe her eye's when she entered the secure area Mike worked in. "This is what I do " he said . Before her she saw a vast spaghetti network of pipes, cages and spiraling loops . "You built this ?" "Yes, they call it the Labyrinth and I have to design ,build and reset it everyday to the Scientists Specifications." "Its Huge . This is where my babies come when they are grown up ?" "Part of it .I don't know where they go after they have been tested here .Now we must leave .Your not supposed to see this." That evening in a public park ,Sarah could tell Mike was excited and nervous. She knew that they had crossed the rubicon and he needed to talk . It came out in a long Burst of enthusiasm and urgency mixed with a degree of nervousness . "What I am going to tell you strictly speaking is classified so it must go no further. I trust you but do you trust me ?" "Yes of course I do Mike but whats troubling you ?" " I am cheating the Labyrinth to help the Rats .Yes I know its wrong but I cant do all those things the Scientists ask me to do. Please just listen ,I need to get this off my Chest . You know they do behavioral tests with electric shock ? Well I found out this amazing thing one day when I turned off the shock plate on the feed door . The rats pretended to get the shock to keep the scientists happy ! The rats are playing the scientists at their own game and I am helping them do it. Its amazing Sarah. Those arrogant stuffed shirts think they have the Rats figured out but those little buggers are so smart they are playing the white coats at their own game. They know when the plates are charged and will suffer the shock . Other times they will pretend to get the shock so the scientist assumes the plate is on when its not ! "I dont know exactly how the rats figure it out so quickly but when the coats arent looking I talk to them Sarah and I swear I think they understand ! You think I'm nuts right ? " "No actually Mike , I dont." Then Sarah went to her bedroom and bought back her Friend . "He's Gorgeous ,you know you could get it in a lot of trouble over that though " "Yes well now we both know each others secrets and we need to keep it that way." There is a very telling scene in the second to last Bond film where the villain explains to Bond how his mother created a rat trap where all the rats fell in to a large hole and were forced to eat each other to survive . Last rat standing is now no longer able to eat anything except meat. Its nature has been changed. It will kill every other rat to be top rat . This is behavioral indoctrination/modification in a nutshell . Its how the cabal engineers society and individuals . When Freud Boasted to Jung that he was bringing the 'plague' to America with his psychoanalytic movement he was not joking , and Jung soon realized just how sinister Freud truly was. A good teacher will only suffer a student for so long before he/she will tell their charge . "I can only teach you so much. you have to live your truth." So while I dont consider myself fully qualified to teach I do know enough to say from experience just a very few basic truths that will stand anyone in good stead . Dont Lie , dont cheat . Tell the truth always no matter how much it costs .Stay close to nature and let her teach you through experience . Eat a healthy balanced diet .Stay away from all spiritual guru's ,churches and cults and make your own way as much as you can . Travel when you are young and free. Youth is a precious window of opportunity to grow and mature . Dont squander it getting drunk ,doing drugs and making an arse of yourself to look cool and tough . Trust your own voice , listen to your conscience . Dont beat yourself up when you make mistakes , learn from them. In relationships apply all you have learned through your travels and dont be afraid of rejection. If someone interests you and you are attracted to them , go for it . Don't mess around and dither. You may win ,you may loose but the experience you gain will be priceless the next time around. Feint heart never won fair lady . Its always been true. Ladies , dont play all those silly games you play with men . Reverse psychology , tantrums and rumor mongering . Men do it yes and its stupid but don't think your exempt from the same consequences .Getting pregnant to reel in a man will always backfire in the end . Men don't respect manipulative women and women will not respect men for the same reason . You wont get true love without honesty and integrity. To often ladies sabotage each others best hopes out of jealousy . If your in to a guy , let HIM know and keep your female friends out of the loop . Only you know what you need to feel fulfilled as a person . Dont let anyone else tell you what that special something is . How the hell would they Know? There is a very clever Film called Bedazzled where 'the Devil' played by Elizabeth Hurley with relish ,teaches a very insecure man how to overcome other people's expectations and be himself. Well worth watching . Brendan Fraser Plays the insecure Nerd so well . But you know some of the nicest people you will ever meet are geeks . Im an alpha male but my daughter is a total Geek . Its not a problem. Real alpha males dont strut and bully. That's another myth that does a lot of harm. I did ask for help and I did get it. I had some incredible teachers ,mostly ET family but they did it by setting up experiences that I grew through without them declaring it . Only much later did I realize . Never harmful though sometimes scary , growth does not happen without pain and hardship. If you cant accept that then your going to lead a dull uneventful life. So if that's what you want that's what you will get . But if you do wimp out you will regret it later . Because real women seek out real men and real life . Not a boring same old existence in a rat trap. Geeks can kick ass just as much as an alpha . Its not a physical strength thing at all . Its not about where your from , its about where you are inside . There is no monopoly on 'the best' in nature . In tribal cultures the shaman does not charge by the hour for consultations . He knows he is maintaining the cohesion in the tribe by playing his part and benefits in other ways .He can show the way , he can give guided demonstrations of the inner path and guide the tribal members. Westerners are quick to ridicule tribal 'superstitions' but then they go to church and swallow a crust that's supposed to be the body of Christ ! Who's the real dumb ass ? The tribal hunter who can see in the dark because his inner eye is open or the self righteous alcoholic Catholic who confesses every Sunday ? Those who seek power for its own sake will study the 'truth' only. Those who seek to make the world a better place for everyone , live what they are taught and apply it. Well I have not got time to say much right now but this thread is massive . I am going to have to take some more time to get my head around your head so to speak . Its the human rats that worry me Orthy . Right now my concerns revolve around attaching a roto tiller to my tractor. That I can figure out .Attaching files and pictures to a post ? Forget it . I would not have the first clue how to do it. Whenever i have tried it all goes to S***.
I predict that in twenty-years (if anyone is still alive) my seemingly-meaningless threads will be deemed quite-right (unfortunately). I think I've reached the silly-stage in my descent into madness -- and I think I sort of "lost-it" with this ridiculous post. I thought I had more time. The End is Near. What Would David Mann Do?? Time to Get Out of Dodge?? What Did Steven Spielberg Know?? When Did He Know It?? We Might Be Surprised!! What Would Paul Say?? "The Rats Shall Inherit the Earth??" Think About It -- But Don't Strain Yourself...
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Jehovah wrote the Bible of Lies like a road map to hell. I read the same energies coming from Dr. William Mount, always quoting the Lord. 
