Thank you so much, Sanicle, for sharing this beautiful combination of deep wisdom, insights and down to Earthness with humor,
which I lost a bit lately
I begin to see the madhouse I'm in, now and then. I mean inwards, not outwards.
I'm not who I seem to be and I'm not yet sure of who I am or will be. Some of my friends can't follow me there.... which is painful because
I need to be with myself in that part of my being, that shamanic journey...... as I feel it.
How I longed for a retreat on a mountain or the rocks of Dartmoor, last year!
Every morning at dawn I'm present in nature to welcome the gold of the
In my entrance hall at home I have a picture of a young boy with a questioning wide eyed face. The text under this picture is
"They've told me, that when I grow up, I will understand it all... but I'm not sure if I want to...." Know what I mean?
This afternoon a girlfriend called and asked me how I was. I felt awkward for not being able to explain how I felt and I think that's a key
to my frustration and anger. But I thanked her for the sound of her voice and her call. I'm not drastic, by throwing away friendship,
because I have found great value in holding on and grow together through changes, quarrels and tears.
My family and ancestors used to turn away quickly, when opinions were different, but that was mostly caused by religion,
a frequent third partner in marriages of many uncles, aunts and..... the one of my parents.
My father was a preacher and I have the fierceness of desperation from my ancestors bloodline.
I chose the name Oranda for my business, for the transformation of my ancestors madhouse is what I've been living through, last year.
7 of my brothers and sisters can't cope with my way of life and thinking, my interests. They're silently on distance, which isn't Always easy
to endure. Fortunately some nieces, touched by that "ancestors bug" and healing from it, are very loyal and stay in touch.
To be patient, waiting for a dawning of new attitudes and new insights is worthwhile, I experience.
It's like in the first video here with Paul Levy, in the introduction it's mentioned that stepping in the power of responsibility as a creator,
is somewhat slow and in delay atm.
I'll continue now with enjoying these series, much love to you for your "help in good timing" Sanicle
B.B.Baghor