Posting Potpourri

orthodoxymoron wrote:It's official. I used a different computer, and the videos I've posted don't display. You know -- the YouTube videos we post which show an image -- and all you have to do is click the arrow to make it play within the post (without having to go to www.youtube.com ). All I see is wide vertical black-bars instead of video-images. Were some of the videos too upsetting?? Were there complaints?? Have there been any lawsuits throughout the years?? I imagine that sites such as this one make various individuals and organizations (human and otherwise) VERY Angry!! I've posted some pretty upsetting videos recently -- but I thought this site was a proper place to do so.

orthodoxymoron wrote:I've noticed a change in the posting over the years -- starting with the Old Project Avalon -- and continuing with The Mists of Avalon. Despite the Bill and Kerry drama -- combined with the Richard and abraxasinas debacle -- there seemed to be more pure and detailed "truth-seeking". I also liked the larger numbers of forum-members (complete with posting whistleblowers such as Henry Deacon). It seems as if the better aspects of the Info-War have surrendered to a lower-vibrational Info-War. I have failed to find a Research Sweet-Spot -- and I'm frankly gravitating toward an 8,000 page Bible Commentary written in the 1950's to phase myself out of the alternative-quest scene. But I guess I've always been sort of a Latter-day Luddite. I'm sort of a contrarian "stick in the mud". Has it always been that way -- going way, way, way back?? Am I a Galactic Pain in Uranus?? That wouldn't surprise me one little bit.

Maybe people are more or less done with 'truth-seeking'.  'Been there done that.'  You have to admit it's a bit of an oxymoron when it comes to generally seeking 'truth' in these forums.  But, hey, it feels good to get it out of your system, don't you think?

As for the numbers of participating forum members these days... It seems rather quiet here lately, so out of curiosity, I recently checked out my previous forums (not bothering with PA, I've no 'concerns' over that one lol).  Earth Empaths, The One Truth, Imaginative Worlds, and Mental Floss The Second... all dead as doornails.

In another forum I was told that a forum is the sum of all its members.  Soon after that, I was shown the door.

'If you build it they will come.'  I keep hoping I'll draw in some cat lovers and troublemakers (within reason, of course).

Btw, do you have a copy of 'The Companion Bible' and 'The New Strong's Exhaustive Concordance of The Bible'?  I've been meaning to read mine and take notes (they're beauties)...  A while back, Jordan Maxwell really got me geared up, but my interests have since gone in other directions.

orthodoxymoron wrote:I've also noticed that I'm being shunned on this website, and in real life. Was it something I said -- or is it who I am (going way, way, way back)?? I've made it clear that I'm doing a Modeling Research Project which doesn't reflect who I really am in real life. But has my approach awakened old rivalries and nastiness?? That wouldn't surprise me one little bit.

I have some theories regarding All of the Above -- but I thought I'd ask these questions directly in a new-thread.

I can't comment on you being shunned in real life, but here on the forum?  Who's shunning you?  Where I'm concerned, I've actually grown to tolerate you (more or less) and like you even a little (despite what I allow to annoy me about you lol)... but, I've very little to offer with regard to the subject matter that interests you.  I'm sorry, it's nothing personal, it just doesn't interest me much (I also don't see you contributing any kitteh memes to my threads wink wink).

The most I've done is offer you some advice which you always entirely ignore (which is fine by me, just saying  ).  Ignoring my advice goes without saying (so why say it, right? ), but lately, ignoring the fact that I've commented isn't like you.  Yes, I call it like I see it and that won't change.  I'm wondering, Oxy... are you afraid to interact with me?  If you haven't noticed, there's plenty of me to go around.

orthodoxymoron wrote:[size=18]It's official. I used a different computer, and the videos I've posted don't display. You know -- the YouTube videos we post which show an image -- and all you have to do is click the arrow to make it play within the post (without having to go to www.youtube.com ). All I see is wide vertical black-bars instead of video-images. Were some of the videos too upsetting?? Were there complaints?? Have there been any lawsuits throughout the years?? I imagine that sites such as this one make various individuals and organizations (human and otherwise) VERY Angry!! I've posted some pretty upsetting videos recently -- but I thought this site was a proper place to do so.

JesterTerrestrial wrote:

OK what you wanna talk about? I seen lots of the posts on here but how can one reply to thousands of questions where yourself is spammed by yourself?

JT makes a good point about you, Oxy.  You constantly spam yourself.  (Yeah, yeah, 'opinions are like a-holes, everybody's got one'.)

orthodoxymoron wrote:I guess I'll just keep modeling what no-one gives a damn about -- which might be just as well -- because the implications and ramifications of my various theories and insights are quite devastating. If anyone bothered to really research what I've posted, they might have severe mental and spiritual problems, which might lead to severe criticism of my threads.

Nice try, Oxy, but you have a lot of readers.  You can't pull that 'poor me' crap.  Obviously, somebody gives a damn.

People might want to severely criticize your threads if they really bothered to do the research?  I sense from you you're desperately hoping they will.  Out of the frying pan and into the fire... that's always exciting.  At present, we're in a quiet forum as far as member involvement goes.  You could join a different forum with more active members and then they will pounce on you.  It can get a bit much -- trust me.  Sometimes, quiet is nice.  But, like you, I could do with a few more voices around here.

orthodoxymoron wrote:I think the legalities of people going nuts after viewing threads on a particular website should be very-carefully researched, so as to avoid exposure. What if someone "lost their faith" after viewing my U.S.S.S. threads, and went insane and/or committed suicide?? I think the "real-truth" might be extremely difficult to deal-with for even seasoned-researchers. A brainwashed religious-person might "lose-it" rather quickly and easily -- and go down hard. That's my concern. So, perhaps I shouldn't complain about non-participation on my threads. Perhaps that might be a "blessing in disguise". I just know that "giving people what they want" and "telling them what they wish to hear" works SO much better than the truth, the whole-truth, and nothing but the truth. Perhaps I should've become a smooth and cunning televangelist with a 25,000 member church -- and a worldwide television-show -- lying and laughing all the way to the bank. Then, Satan might've given me a ride in his (or her) UFO -- and given me a private-tour of the Dark-Side of the Moon!! Joining a Secret-Society and Selling One's Soul to Satan seems to be the road to fame, fortune, and power. Unfortunately, "eating one's dragon" and becoming "perfectly-possessed" seems to be part of the deal. Plus, I keep hearing about the elite participating in human-sacrifices and unmentionable-abominations. I should stop.

Well... that whole paragraph is (mostly) your truth, Oxy.  It's not necessarily anyone else's.  Do you get that?

Yes, we all need to be responsible for our own actions.  Each one of us has the power to make choices about however we decide to interpret this reality/non-reality/whatever and decide, individually, what's important or not.  If you're doing something that you think may harm others and that bothers you, then stop it.  Meantime, everyone has a free will.  It's up to people to decide if they want to 'lose it' by simply researching your stuff.  Their own ignorance is something they need to work through (nobody said this game was fair).  That's got nothing to do with you.

One thing in particular that does bother me about what you post is the repeated anti-reptilian imagery (plus 'illuminati' mumbo-jumbo).  I've got a few of those negative images seared into my mind, thanks to you.

Here's my feeling:  for the most part, I don't think the reptiles are the bad guys (should they even exist).  The 'illuminati' shite is particularly irksome in the way you combine it all.  It feels like a 'disconnect', and it just makes me want to punch somebody in the face.  Is that your intention -- the reaction you want (or are you just trying to freak people out)?  I'm not a fan of fear porn, btw.

Nanu said something the other day in my Wilcock thread that relates to this.  I've included my response:

Pris wrote:

NANUXII wrote:He is a long term sleeper .. like Icke .. they have infiltrated every facet of information distribution and plant seeds of doubt

eg : Icke is always against the reptilian races .. this is an NWO agenda.   The reppies are probably our best hope.

and some food for thought ... if a high profile figure from the UN can get knocked off for testifying in court against a clinton , why is Icke allowed to do wembly and state the Queen is a Lizzard and just keep on going ?  

hmmm

simple ... because thats what they want :0)  

its all there ...

Sweet, Nanu.  Well said.

I've gained a lot from both Icke and Wilcock, but you're sure right about them both.  Planting seeds of doubt (a.k.a bull shite) is what they do.

The reptiles are our best hope?  I wouldn't know myself, but it wouldn't surprise me one little bit.  Dragons... I've always had a thing for dragons.
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orthodoxymoron wrote:Thank-you mudra. I lean toward the intensification of the internal-dialogue BUT with the refining and perfecting of this dialogue. I should spearhead The Monkey-Mind Potential Movement!! Emptying the mind seems to open the door to various types of supernatural infiltration and subversion (especially if one has ingested their dragon). Something sinister seems to be occurring within the general-public and the nether-realms. We're seemingly being dumbed-down in a high-technology and esoteric-philosophical manner. I'm not sure I like where this is going. I have some theories -- and they're NOT nice.

What's with the whole degrading, 'Monkey Mind' thing?  You're offending monkeys.  I happen to love my mind.  It's a beautiful, beauuutiful thing.

Btw, I tend to agree with you that the internal chatter is a good thing, actually.  I've used my 'chatter' to really drive home an intent which makes for some fascinating directed altered states experiences.

Note:  in the process of initiating an OBE, I really have to focus and be 'clear', if that's what mudra's talking about.  Still, I seem to astral travel with my ego and mind entirely intact.

Why do you seem to fear having an OBE, Oxy (you mentioned it previously)?  There's nothing to fear when you are in charge.  It all comes down to choice again.

orthodoxymoron wrote:People and Other-Than-People have been trying to "reach" me my whole miserable life. The problem is that everyone has been attempting to "reach" me with a million different and conflicting insights, truths, plans, and agendas. I've been told to "Let Go -- and Let God" among other things. The bottom-line is that whatever I think, say, do, or write is WRONG according to everyone. So, after a while, one tends not to care anymore.

Whether or not we 'reach' you, Oxy, isn't really the point.  A part of me thinks it would be really kind of nice, but this is about so much more than just us.  This is a public forum and others are reading this.

Speaking only for myself, I'm doing everything I can to be insightful here for everyone's benefit and not just anal (mudra has been particularly insightful, certainly not anal ).

orthodoxymoron wrote:I am spied-upon, analyzed, managed, conspired-against, laughed-at, etc. I'm caring less and less and less about All of the Above.

orthodoxymoron wrote:I've essentially "dropped-out" of mainstream-life (with very great social and financial sacrifices) to seek that illusive "truth". I thought that was the equivalent of leaving the rat-race for the mystical-silence -- but that still wasn't good enough. It's NEVER good enough. I don't care whether it's politics, religion, philosophy, music, or anything -- it's NEVER good enough.

'It's NEVER good enough.  It's NEVER good enough'  Repeated negative self-talk.  Blanket statement.  Not good.

How does one define 'good enough'?  By whose measuring cup?  You're sitting there telling us you know for a fact it's NEVER good enough.  Wow, that's pretty anal of you.  Who made you the authority?  

orthodoxymoron wrote:I think I might rejoin my Old Church -- rejoin the Republican Party -- stop researching the fringe-stuff -- stop posting on the internet -- drink the Kool Aid -- and get back to work (with fast and trendy thinking, walking, and talking). I might even trade my dumb-phone in for a smart-phone -- start texting and playing Pokémon Go!! I might start sleeping in the wrong bed (like everyone else). I might even try to join the Masons!! The Ancient Egyptian Deity invited me to join!! But that was before the AED said they were sorry we couldn't work together!! I guess I just wasn't good enough to hobnob with the elite. I guess I'll always just be another Completely Ignorant Fool. Actually, my mind is mostly empty already. I don't really need to silence my mind. There's really not a lot going on in my deluded head. But perhaps in my next life I can Sell My Soul to Satan and become a New World Order Manager. Hope Springs Eternal.

Whatever makes you happy, Oxy.  Who am I to judge?      

If this is all just a front and you're just being silly, whatever.

If this is how you really feel, then I'd say you're definitely playing into their hands.  They've got you, hook, line and sinker and they're laughing as you let them drag you off into your own little self-imposed hell.

orthodoxymoron wrote:Thank-you mudra and Pris. I think I got "Monkey-Mind" from Carol. I don't know if the reptilians exist. I don't know much of anything. I'm currently wondering if this universe is fundamentally NOT Human. I'm currently wondering if this universe is fundamentally Reptilian. Notice that I'm pretty-much neutral regarding the PTB and the Reptilians. I pull my punches to an excruciating extent. BTW -- I have a Strong's Concordance (which is MUCH Better than a Young's Concordance). The major-problems with Biblical-Research are Verification, Authorship, Context, Translations, Interpretations, and the Attempts to Superimpose Antiquity Upon Modernity. I've tried to deal with these problems by making Biblical-Research Science-Fictional in Nature -- and NOT Trying to Convert ANYONE!! I think if church were up to me, I would lean toward a Fred Swann Crystal Cathedral approach -- which would mostly consist of MUSIC!!! I'm referring to the Arvella Schuller and Fred Swann directed Music-Program at the Crystal Cathedral in the 1980's and 1990's. Classrooms, Libraries, Bookstores, and the Internet are places where people can Wrestle with the Madness in their own ways. I keep thinking I should exit the Info-War before it gets REALLY Nasty!! A lot of what we've discussed hasn't really affected the general-public YET!! I think the PTB tolerate me because I screw myself SO Badly each and every day!! If only I were a hermaphrodite!! Think About It!! Just Kidding!!

HA!  You squeezed in another comment before I could finish.

If so, tsk tsk Carol for the 'Monkey-Mind'.

Enjoy your books, enjoy your studies, Oxy.  If that's what drives you, so be it.  We all need something to get us out of bed.

Hermaphrodite?!  I'm certain there are some people out there who'd give you two thumbs up on that one (oh my, did I just say that HAHA?).  


Oxy, have you ever seen the movie, 'The Phantom of the Paradise'?  It's one of my favourites.  I think you may glean some insight from it... I know I have.  

The Hell Of It
Paul Williams   "Phantom Of The Paradise" soundtrack

Roll on thunder shine on lightnin' the days are long and the nights are frightnin'
Nothing matters anyway and that's the hell of it
Winter comes and the winds blow colder, well some grew wiser you just grew older
And you never listened anyway and that's the hell of it
Good for nothin', bad in bed, nobody likes you and you're better off dead goodbye
We've all come to say goodbye, goodbye
Born defeated died in vain
Super destructive you were hooked on pain and tho' your music lingers on
All of us are glad you're gone
If I could live my life half as worthlessly as you
I'm convinced that I'd wind up burning too
Loved yourself as you loved no other be no man's fool be no man's brother
We're all born to die alone y'know that's the hell of it
Life's a game where they're bound to beat you and time's a trick they can turn to cheat you
And we only waste it anyway and that's the hell of it
Good for nothin', bad in bed, nobody likes you and you're better off dead goodbye
We've all come to say goodbye
Born defeated died in vain
Super destructive you were hooked on pain and tho' your music lingers on
All of us are glad you're gone

orthodoxymoron wrote:Thank-you Pris. I don't do anything supernatural or creepy. I don't do Seances, Hypnosis, OBE's, Channeling, Remote-Viewing, etc. I think this brings one into close-proximity with beings who don't like humanity. I don't think I'm a match for these guys. I simply research and reflect. That's ALL. The "Not Good Enough" is NOT my judgment. The bottom-line is that none of this is worth the trouble. It's an exercise in futility. This solar-system is rigged. Resistance is Futile. I've been trying to End the Quest for years. Perhaps this will be the year I succeed. I hope the End is Near. Looking-Good and Making-Money work SO Much Better!! If only I knew how...

And, thank you!

You could be entirely right, Oxy!  Then again, you could be entirely wrong!  

What if there's nothing 'supernatural' or 'creepy' about any of this and it's all completely natural and normal?

Can't we just have some fun in the meantime?

If there's a-holes out there, screw 'em.  'Go out kicking and screaming', that's my motto.  Never will I submit.  The only power they hold over me is the power I grant them.

orthodoxymoron wrote:Submissive to who and/or what?? To start with, this is a non-conformist and radical website. If I'm submissive, why do I stick my dick out each and every day on this godforsaken forum?? If I'm submissive, why do I take positions which no-one else (anywhere) seems to be taking?? If I'm submissive, why am I accused (in this very forum) of ignoring the comments of forum-members?? If I'm submissive, why does everyone seem to hate me?? I've concluded that the Real PTB wish to keep things stirred-up. They do NOT wish for the People of the World to Hold-Hands and Sing Kumbaya. That would be bad for business. I've also concluded that this solar-system is One BIG Business with One BAD@SS CEO (who probably has ruled this solar-system for at least the past 6,000 years). Do I sound submissive?? Could I get a government job?? Could I get a security clearance?? BTW -- I once applied for a Military Industrial Complex Job, where I had to wear a badge. It was sort of cool -- but I didn't get the job. It was submarine-related. If I told you more, you'd know too-much. Anyway, I think I've uncovered some things which have made various Individuals of Interest quite uneasy and/or upset. I've NEVER signed on the dotted-line -- but one night my television switched-on all by itself, and a VERY creepy Rumplestiltskin (from Once Upon a Time) appeared, saying "All You Have to Do Is Sign On the Dotted-Line!!" Honest. Do I create my very-own little-hell all by myself -- or do I receive "help" from the nether-realms?? Just because I'm paranoid, doesn't mean they're NOT out to get me. Just because I consider "crazy-stuff" doesn't mean I'm "crazy". I suspect "THEY" have a VERY unflattering file on me -- going way, way, way back. I just hope that Situation-Ethics carries some weight in Galactic Courts of Law. One More Thing, I've been told that French-Organists spend hours playing every conceivable note-combination regardless of how bad some of these chords sound -- just to exhaust all of the tonal-possibilities -- and to prepare themselves to be the Best Organists in the World. This is sort of what I'm trying to do on this website -- in a conceptual-sense. I am an Esoteric Possibility-Thinker (and mostly ashamed of it). I really wish to disappear without being removed (in the near-future).