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Simplicity wrote:Nah...actually it's kind of jarring.
But I like your description much better
(Does it mean I'm being harrassed by scary creatures that like to watch me jump?)
sabina wrote:Igot cut my job which i like down to500euro
this little money will not suport me and iam too old to change the job i will not get another one
sometimes iam so tired i don t want to fight anymore and i lose the faith that all will change for better
by the way it is getting worse
all the best sabina
sabina wrote:Igot cut my job which i like down to500euro
this little money will not suport me and iam too old to change the job i will not get another one
sometimes iam so tired i don t want to fight anymore and i lose the faith that all will change for better
by the way it is getting worse
all the best sabina
sabina wrote:Igot cut my job which i like down to500euro
this little money will not suport me and iam too old to change the job i will not get another one
sometimes iam so tired i don t want to fight anymore and i lose the faith that all will change for better
by the way it is getting worse
all the best sabina
Sanicle wrote:Happy to see you keep that wonderful sense of humour of your's no matter what Troy lol.
Carol wrote:Ahh Troy, I can so relate given some of my work history and having worked for the boss from Hades. And then some Board members from Hades.
During that period I just wanted to stay in our home (which was a mountain top near Yosemite) and never leave. Sometimes doing the work out in the world is a bit much especially when under attack. Recovery from burnout generally takes at least 3 - 6 months unless you're on the accelerated therapy program which includes Roshi neuro-biofeedback, massage therapy, music, hanging out in nature with long walks or hikes - or even hanging out next to the ocean. Don't forget the journal dialogue writing. This really helps to purge some of those more negative feelings.
The grief process is difficult because of the emotional roller coaster ride. I generally suggest keeping boxes of kleenex all over the house and in the car.
These days I'm feeling a bit over-whelmed myself. I did sit down and write out the Christmas list, purchased the Xmas cards for nieces and nephews, bought a few Xmas gifts as I will not be going to the malls, the list is short and everything else I can order on-line. This will be the first year without my mum. Her Birthday is coming up too and I do miss her.
We're still dealing with my dysfunctional elder brother and have lost thousands of dollars on the stock market just since last July. We decided to cash out before we lose more - or at least while there is still something in there. Our property lost 50% of its value. At least the bills are paid. I did pick up a few items for Thanksgiving tomorrow and am looking forward to sitting down and just enjoying a traditional dinner with our tiny family here.
My bees were under attack by these small round flying black beetles so I've been switching out frames in the hive and using pans filled with vegetable oil on the bottom to catch and drown the little beasties which need to be drained and cleaned out every couple of days. I also had a swarm which I was unable to save by getting them into the new hive nuc box. I was working with that little swarm for three days using the smoker and attempting to brush the off the tree into their new home. That was depressing as a nuc with a queen and bees is worth $250. Then I also had to deal with the cockroaches that were ready to infest and had gotten into the supra (top box to the hive) that I hadn't put on yet. These days my life is about insects (including the elder brother),
Since it poured last night all the new marigold plants that I put in the outdoor bath tub are likely to be floating around along with a couple of berry plants. Reinhard did manage to move one of the roosters and hen into a new chicken tractor last night while it was pouring and even went and fed goat and the horses. He is such a pure heart and trooper.
Never in all the days of my life did I ever think I would be a beekeeper at this phase of my life but the fruit trees need to be pollenated as does the garden. Now there are visions of honey, candles, soap and mead wine.... someday, if I ever learn how to keep the little beasties away from the hive.
Carol wrote:Troy, time to cut Gregg some slack and trust him. He made a huge shift in his life to be with you and that says everything right there. And you do know just how fragile new relationships are. It's best not to keep pulling the plant out of the ground to see if the roots are growing. If you don't mind a suggestion - do journal writing. Lots and lots of it because there are multiple issues now going on in your life (of which Gregg is just one). No need to emotionally drag him into your unfinished business with the work situation and what it means to be cut off cold-turkey from clients. When I was cut off cold turkey from the kids I was working with it just devastated me because I couldn't even go back and tell them what happened. This was because of the boss from hell wanted me to falsify fiscal reports (which of course I would not do as this was state money I was responsible for) and led to my leaving as he was into the whole power trip thingy.
Needless to say there were multiple issues at that work situation. I loved my job and knew my boss was crazy (all those years of being a pot smoker and using drugs left him paranoid and a bit brain damaged). However, since he was an M.D. and excelled at confabulation, I didn't stand a chance as he was backed by a corrupt Board of Supervisors. Needless to say all of that ugliness led to us ending up living in Hawaii which isn't to shabby considering the alternative. And we also went through a bankruptcy, fighting it all as well - so I suggest you look at this as an opportunity Troy. Do your grieving, get creative by writing, doing art of some sort, make music... vent your emotions in a healthy way and don't do the drama queen/king by making ultimatums with your emotional support system because its difficult enough on them just being there for you and watching you go through all of this. You can do this. Going though these emotions are a bit of an emotional roller coaster ride but at least you have access to your feelings and aren't numb. Most men's identity is tied up with their job. Think of it as an identity crisis. The facade is dropping away allowing you to become more of who you really are. All of what you are experiencing is the drama, the whirlwind of emotions... yet at the center of each tornado is the eye of calm. This is your journey back to your true self - that eye of calm and serenity. Be at peace Troy. You're journey is just beginning and keep in mind that the other side of fear is excitement.