I would like to thank all of you who came and gave kind thoughts and invited me here. I read all of the thread of PA2. That is how I function--not impulsively but trying to understand.
I was kicked in the face by a horse and awoke in the ER with no memory. It took quite a while for me to rehabbed. I am probably back to at least 80% of what I was. I was 58 at the time, and considered not worth rehabbing. So I consider this a small miracle and a lot contributed by the internet in teaching me neural brain plasticity etc.
So you can see how dangerous I am to Richard who if he gets his way will ban me.LOL
Much of what I read here confirms what I have been told that this is essentially the third time this has happened. Let us hope the third time is the charm.
I will come here and read. It takes me a while to understand new things and how this site works. When I first start I feel very lost. So everything from me will be very basic.
Right now I don't know much about your site.
I am committed to seeing if I can help in healing Avalon. My reason for that is that I have asked myself deeply why both Kerry and Richard bothered me so. And I finally came to the conclusion that I find them both abrasive in the sense of the ugly American.
I am an army brat and was raced in many places during the occupation after WWII. I have been deeply imprinted by interacting with the ordinary people of which I am one in another culture. Even when I was a child, I was greatly moved by a little Japanese girl who was willing to share her orange with me when I could see she had almost nothing.
Both Richard and Kerry epitomizes to me the exceptionalism Americans hold that give them the right to Drill Down Now. To me Bill and Avalon represent a beginning of trying to build an international intent and connection. It is not an American site. Older cultures living side by side have had to learn politeness and social ritual to let understanding unfold. I see none of that in the Kerry/Richard dynamics that is so heavily displayed.
Celine has major issues she needs to deal with. She talks a lot about a mother and a father who was a hospital administrator and a nurse. Highly educated and professional, from that experience she decided not to get an education and to be a stay at home mom. She married a man about as opposite from her father as she could get. It does not take a PhD to look at this.
I am strongly attracting strong women. It is our consensus that rather conscious or other wise by her behavior Celine does not want any other woman to develop a voice at Avalon. That time has passed. My commitment is to stay there and try and manifest the Divine Feminine now to the best of my ability.
For the record, my sun sign, moon sign, rising sign, mars, and venus are all Aries. If there is such as thing as Cardinal Fire I am it. I do not manifest in warrior mode. I am the strong and enduring Sophia.
If there is such a thing as attracting what is needed than that is how I got there and here.
I feel that this is deserving of a good explanation. If I get totally banned I may wind up here. But I do want to try and work this out. I have been there only a month and it feels like a year.
After I first posted it felt like a ton of PMs saying you are a nasty person who do you think you are. By noon, it was 50 -50 and by 3 PM the tide had turned. I am open to all your advice, and I will share how I see this working out.
So you know I actually got asked to do a radio interview and I said no. That is because I don't speak as well as I write and under stress which an interview would be--it would be worse. I am not sure what the real issues are and who is pulling what strings but I do hold my intentions to the universe to do the right thing, in the right way, in the right time, for all the right reasons.
I ask you help in accomplishing that. My deep appreciation for your concern and care for Avalon also.