Carol wrote:I honestly think I'm probably the eldest member on this forum. Yet my avatar is an image of how I view myself within. It's a place where one is ageless. As spiritual beings we are both of these energies intermingled. We take on the expression on one particular sex to understand what life is about from that experience. I remember many, many lives as a male monk and with a little help from ET had full recall of the interlife when I was choosing a female body - and in hysterics laughing because it was so completely opposite from my usual incarnation. All of my planets are in masculine signs yet to actually see me one would never think male (except for one secretary I had who told me I thought like a man). What I found amusing in this life is the attraction I have for some asian and Indian women. I just recall being so surprised and thought, ah hah, this must be residual from past lives. Yet, I also love men and find them just as fascinating. I honestly think that we are androgenous and tend to go with the hormone call... and perhaps a few genetic leanings.
Having experienced the hormone game on multiple levels I learned how much they can control one's life. Although the life path includes sex, what is even more important is the connection one makes at the heart level which transcends the needs of the physical. These other things (physical needs and desires) can come and go. Yet in the long run what is important is the connection we make at a spiritual level where we can appreciate the totality of each others humaness.
Your Avatar is fascinating and beautiful, and seems to capture the essence of what you are putting out there.
I have never attempted past-life regressions (at least not in this life).
The more I "wake up" the less interested I am in sex. Or is it the other way around. I mean, did I have enough sex that I finally woke up?
I just spent some time alone, looking after the animals of some friends.
We had a freak snow storm, and I nearly slid off the edge of a cliff.
I do not know what stopped me, but I was ready to die, and I remember thinking that I have been a good person, and I was okay with dying.
It was all in slow motion, of course, so one of my other thoughts (while screaming) was, "Just get it over with".
My car jumped the small berm that seperated the edge of the road from oblivion.
I do not know how/why I was able to stop, but when I did, it was immediate.
I was able to get a ride to my friend's house, but my car is still stuck in the snow (and vandalized).
Anyhow, the power went out and I had turkeys, chickens, ducks, 10 cats, 3 dogs, a guinea pig and two fish to look after.
I did not think about sex.
I thought about companionship.
The illusion of separation is very powerful.
I was lost in my loneliness for a time before I remembered my intention to "talk to the trees".
Actually, I realized the trees had been talking and I was not paying attention.
It looked like Narnia outiside, and I expected to run into Tumnus at any moment.
The short of it: Even in their endless patience, the trees are quite upset. They have called out to Gaia, but in unison with other organisms. Their first choice is to look after us, but they are in dire straits.
And they are still so beautiful.
After a couple of days of little food, and hyperventilating after gathering fire wood, I sort of left my body for a moment.
I started to get a bit scared, then remembered that some people deliberately use such techniques to visit other planes.
I attempted to announce that it was my journey and I picked where I went.
But that is not how it came down.
I am not sure where I went, but it was a bit scary for a moment.
I had been thinking about this site, and feeling badly about jumping in on the other thread -- unfinished business, so to speak.
Suddenly I was just in the dark, and I heard the words: "You have been found to be in service to others".
Then I snapped out of it, feeling a little silly.
The next day I realized I culd not live on the rest of the peanut butter in the cabinet, and that I would have to leave.
I tried two times, and got the message to stop.
Suddenly, I got the stong message, "Leave, right now". I walked to the roads that had been cleared, then up to the highway. The very first person to come along offered me a ride to a place where my family could get to me. I was back home in less than one hour.
I am still processing all of this, along with my experience in the "Judgment room".
All I know is that I am good to go.
Wherever that may be...